Today I imported two video files into iMovie (a really old copy) and made copies of my videos on two tiny tapes. I also put away my hard drive and gathered my contracts and info sheets for my videos and found a box to ship it all away in. I am now burning the required dvds. Woot! I will have my videos in distribution, thank god!
I quit smoking today so it would be another quit on an 18th day of the month. November 18th, I quit smoking. I am doing the patch and having the odd lozenge when I get a craving.
This is me before the snow came, with some new sexy underwear I purchased. Yes, that is the Pilsbury Doughboy. I was hoping I could wear it on a date, but so far I’ve had no need. I’m just wearing it when I feel like laughing every time I go to the bathroom.
I’m spending money to make money. It’s kind of a drag. I wish I could make money without having to spend anything. I had to rent equipment for a shoot this weekend, and I had to buy a hard drive for my videos to send to Toronto. I’m looking forward to when money starts rolling in again.
I’ve gotten used to feeling hopelessly single. I feel like maybe this isn’t the best feeling. I’m worried I won’t find a girlfriend until I move away to Toronto.
More confessions, I found an ex by googling her. Google is not my friend. I shouldn’t even have put her name in a search engine, I should have left well enough alone. I was perfectly content not speaking to her. Now I’ve seen her clothed breasts again and that cute face and I’m like “Oh shit! Not this again!” I can’t be hung up on this woman forever. No more!
I’ve started a Tumblr, but mostly just to reblog things I find funny or smart or sexy. I’m maintaining this blog still as my all original writings of my life. I feel like I have invested too much into it to let it go.
I’ve had a sore throat for two days. I’m terrified of the big C word being involved. It’s probably a cold that I am fighting off, but it’s still terrifying me. I’ve got one friend with a tumor in his lung and another friend who has something abnormal going on in his esophagus, and it has really kicked me in the pants about this whole mortality thing. I know one day I will die, I just don’t want it to be horribly premature. I feel like my struggles to stay alive during suicidal depressions which have been really terrible shouldn’t be meaningless if I end up dying of cancer early in my life. It’s really made me happy I quit smoking, for what I hope is the final time.
I’m getting better at getting work done. I still have some shit I have to do though, I am going to be busy this next while. I am going to Regina this coming weekend for a show, that should be nice. I always feel so weird watching my videos in the audience, because I totally pay attention to the audience reactions. And it makes me nervous.
I don’t have any library fines! I have to go get a new card because my account expired, but hurrah hurrah! No fines! I was terrified I owed my soul to the library. I’m relieved that I can now take out books and stuff without using my mom’s card.
I am behind in my readings. I need to get caught up. I am also applying for CSR jobs that pay good money. I went for a keyboarding test (did I already mention this?) and scored 51 and 54 wpm. With a 99 and 100 percent accuracy rate respectively. Which puts me in the running for those jobs. I hope I get an interview.
Although I do have so much work to do, I wouldn’t be horribly sad if I remained jobless until January 16th when my grad application is due. That’s probably a bad thing to say. I just need time to read and write and shtuff!
I didn’t cook anything all weekend. I still want to make bread! Maybe Tuesday I will!