So today (it’s only 16 minutes into today, but it is the 18th!) is my one YEAR anniversary of quitting drinking! I can’t believe that much time has gone by! It was awkward at first, and I felt bummed out that I couldn’t have fun in that way anymore. BUT I also haven’t gotten pukey drunk in over a year and I saved a lot of money and my liver has gotten better. All good things. My relationship to alcohol has totally changed. I have still been around drunks, but it’s been nice not drinking and being able to drive myself home whenever because I am still sober.
I don’t have much else to say about being dry for a year. It’s just a good feeling to get to this point! I’m pretty happy with myself. I am even amazed that I went to Tribeca and was able to decline free mimosas! So much free alcohol was being passed around, and I didn’t have any. It was probably my biggest test of my sobriety!
I’m doing good in other ways. My friend did friend me on facebook in the end, so that was nice. I still miss her, and don’t know if I will ever see her again. BUT there is a chance she might come to this screening of mine here during Pride, so that would be awesome. I’m so nervous that I will be like Stan Marsh on Southpark and puke when I see her from nervousness! But I don’t even know if I will see her. Who can say?
I’m going to be applying for some grants this fall, aside from that there isn’t much going on in my life. I think this summer will be super laid back, once I do these screenings and performance and stuff. I’m looking forward to going camping and driving out in the country. I’m thinking about getting a super part time job just to bring a little more money into my life. Even one that paid two hundred a month would be a help.
Things could always change without much notice. Life has a way of doing that. I don’t know what the future will bring, but I am still looking forward to it.